Ch-ch-ch-changes

Crushed Dreams

Today I thought about quitting my job. Just walking into my boss's office and hand in my resignation. Then I would walk to my coworkers and thank them and tell them it was great while it lasted. Then I would send a mass email with plenty of nasty thoughts.

Then I came to my frakking senses and remembered I have a car payment coming up.

What the hell happened? There was a plan. There was a purpose. Now all that's left is a sense of constant dread. Hell, I am lucky to have a job and I have enough to eat and a warm place to sleep.

So I decided to do. I am going to try something new and see how it works out. It's going to be difficult. It might be a mistake. I am a little freaked out. And for once, that damnable sense of dread is gone. Well, not completely gone, but it's not so loud anymore.

I have to take a chance because the world continues to move. No one is slowing down, no one is going to wait for me to catch up. If I want my freedom I have to grab it and fight. I thought I didn't have any fight in me. That's because I forgot the first rule of mountain climbing: you start at the bottom, and you climb. You keep climbing until you reach the top. I kept looking down when I should have been looking up. It won't happen tomorrow, or next week, or even next year, but I will make it happen. I don't give up. I struggle until there is nothing left, then I get back up. I haven't failed, I just haven't achieved my ultimate goal.

What is that you may ask?

I'm not telling................................................................................

The Truth................
.................................. life sucks and you can't change the world single-handily but we can change the world around us for the better. When we make other people better, it spreads and expands. Just because we can't see it doesn't mean it didn't happen.

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Lost Tips to Relationships

1. No matter what happens, hook up.
Despite the situation you are in if there is a pretty girl next to you with even the slightest
interest in you, try and hook up. Between a smoke monster that kills, the Others, Freight
Militia, paranoia, freely accessible weapons, time travel that's fatal, double agents, and
underwater hatches, don't think about, just do. Chances are you'll be dead tomorrow.
example: Kate and Sawyer in a cage.


2. In the middle of a firefight, find the nearest picnic table.
True fact: Darma picnic tables are designed to withstand 44 mm artillery shell at point blank
range. Why else would there be so many picnic tables? example: Sawyer shoots Freight
Militia from behind a wooden picnic table and does not get shot.

3. Just because they are good doctors doesn't make them good people.
It seems everybody believes that if you are a doctor you must have a heart of gold. But if
anybody remembers life back on the mainland if you don't have the right insurance you can't
even see a doctor. If you don't have money the best doctors are off limits. And most
importantly, they are society's drug dealers. Name one drug you were prescribed that didn't
have more than 3 syllables? You can't even remember, can you?!?!?

4. If you fall in love with someone, prepare for heartbreak.
Boone loved his stepsister, dead.
Charlie loves Claire, dead.
Libby loves Hurley, so dead.
Any women who falls for Sayid, dead. (seriously, all of them)
Jack loves Kate, suicidal.
Kate and Sawyer are the exception. Look to Rule 1.

The Truth........
.......................... is that finding someone to share your life with may be hard, but high-end call girls are ridiculously expensive.